i've been hit by love

my black soul is in me thanks cece lol i love u!!!!! and i happy!!!

love my babe

tonight i meet my babes 2 best friends! they are super nice and very funny!!! i would love to hang with them again and get to know them more!!! i really like them!!! yah so omg soo ray for wakin u up hunny!!! i dont think sometimes :( but i wanted to invite u to Hawaiian oh well next babe...

oh i am soo happy! my babe bought me this awesome new lacoste bag also !!! hehehe im very lucky to have him

now i can put all my stuff for work in it and itz black!!!



TOCA MIRCLE remake 2008 enjoy

this song is how i feel!!!

And it shows

My homies say this boy is crampin' my style

My momma told me
Be careful who you do cuz karma comes back around
Same ol' song
But I was so sure
That it wouldnt happen to me
Cuz I know how to put it down
But I was so wrong...




SO CAUGHT UP!!!

PCD new i love it baby!!!

http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=TcEZrEPDV9k&feature=user

Boys call you sexy (What's up, sexy)
And you don’t care what they say
See, every time you turn around
They scream your name

Now I've got a confession
When I was young I wanted attention
And I promised myself that I’d do anything
Anything at all for them to notice me


But I ain't complaining
We all wanna be famous
So go ahead and say what you wanna say
You know what it's like to be nameless
Want them to know what your name is
'Cause see when I was younger I would say

When I grow up
I wanna be famous!!!!

in love with the beat!!!!! fucken hot!!!

kiss you off my lips of mine

There are some pics from TO... i really miss my friends there!!!
and thanks Ray Viet Oct. and Brendan for helpin me out and being here for me!!!

love you all!!!

this trip was amazing !!!
good getaway for a new start with the one i care from the start

missin u like candy

i got my sam!!! u are all mine!!!!

i got my sam sparro cd from my babe today hehehe it soo good!!!! so if anyone wants to borrow it just let me know!!!!

blast from the past!!!!

Sexy! No No No

everybody's free to feel good!!!!

am I second choice...? you tell me

"Love is blind until u really realize what you are really missing"


Shane says:
how could these people turn their backs on the people that will show them as much love...

Shane says:
i told J that, i said "i will do anything for you, love you more than anyone you know, and give u my soul, but you don't want it"


Shane says:
why am i so fucked

chris says:
when u love someone u will do anything for them, even if they don't love you back... that is how crazy our hearts are...


*shane's story is soo sad... i been with him from the beginning until now and he makes me cry for him... and myself

soon i will have no more tears to cry...

i hate me... wish i never

i make my family suffer for my mistakes...
i feel like the worst person in the world...
even my heart doesnt wanna stop

i want to make it better... i will work hard and make more money for my family... that is the best i can do for them...

i just feel like dyin

i just need someone 2 hold me tight now....

SAM SPARRO

I want his CD he is sooo awesome !!! i found my new obsession...
WATCH OUT SAM IM COMING FOR YOU




http://www.myspace.com/samsparro CHECK THIS CUTIE OUT!!!!


LOVE LOVE LOVE HIM

I can't let my heart jump... I need to really think before i do anything... (brains before heart)

this song is for fritz...

waiting for you... but you never really care

the past few days...
sorry to some of my friends who didn't know sorry for my random disappearance i know i been gone long and haven't answer any of your calls... i just need to get far away from everything... No family no work just to get away....


But learned soo much

1- whatever i do or go... i cant change who i am
2- My Feelings for the ppl i love will always stay
3- My friends are golden and amazing they will do anything for me
4- I deserve to be #1 not second hand
5- One day someone will appreciate my love and my personality


but all i know now that i don't belong in Montreal anymore...

the time will come i will be leaving for good... but not anytime soon

but for sure i will

i would like to thank Brendan the best guy ever.. it been 4 years and he still treat me soo good...
that is what i call true friendship

just caring, talking and hanging out helps me a lot...

i miss him soo much already...

Good heart + Good soul = Brendan


yah so my plans didnt work... i am who i am leaving montreal doesn't change anything it just come back everynight....

i will just have to live and learn

Bye Montreal part 2 Im leaving now to take the bus.... Bye

I close my eyes and see
A vision of what used to be
Such beauty

Undress me to the bone
Scatter seeds among the stones
Can't you see

Imagine brown eyes, love
And wonder
That's what keeps me from
Goin' under
Imagine passing through
Yous shadow
A fly-by-angel at your window

Am I dreaming again
Dreaming of when
I thought you were heaven sent
But I wonder
Dreaming again
Dreaming of when
I thought love was innocent
But I wonder

Walkin' through empty streets
Gazin' at your history
So blue yeah
Deep in the heart of me
I just can't shake the memories
It's you yeah

Imagine walkin' on the water
The past keeps comin' back to
Haunt you...

isnt it ironic?!

BYE MONTREAL!!!!

tired but packing now!!!

xoxoxo gonna miss the ones who cant make it with us xoxoxo

but i'll bring back goodies for u guys...cuz u love me

song of the night is DREAMING :(

all the time i said......

Thanks BB Hamster 7 hours from mtl and Shane in china

I wanna thank you both for textin me and cheerin me up almost everyday even tho both live super far .. but watever thanks for thinkin about me

this song is for you BB hamster xxx ( it feels nice again getting both your text message seein how i am.... and wanting to know wassup with my life... )

FUCK MONTREAL

Omg i cant wait to get outta here!!! i cant stand montreal anymore its gonna kill me... i really need to a break from here.. too much... too much for me to handle now...

yah so hopefully i come back as all new boy... maybe i should listen to sean.... be a bitch .. hmmm ill keep it in mind.. cuz i dont think soo... i care too much but i should change... my heart is too big... hopefully this trip will change me... cuz i cant live like this forever :(

well song of the day is BREAKING ALL THE RULES
(that was wat i was doin.. i felt good and right but it didn't last cuz i wannted more) oh well it bites ass... soo all my friends dont make the same mistake as me and u can see how im repaying bad skin and no sleep

when i get a little scared....

remember when i was so strange and likable....

i just want back in your head....

i hate it....

trouble on wheels...

yah so we went to the west part of town to go for supper!!! i drove everyone it was super fun!!! yeah we also had Simon with us!! if u dont know who he is.. itz ray's crazy bird yeah he is crazy!!! yeah so we spent 2 hours eatting man!!! soo yummy!!! yah so im getting ready for my trip... i cant wait cuz im goin to see my old friend brendan he is super cool!!! and fun!!

I'm okay in the day now but at times i have that empty feelin and miss someone in my life but itz okay i dont want to be unwanted soo yah felix u are right...

yeah so i better get my beauty sleep cuz i have a important day tomorrow it will change my life lol i'll tell all u guys later xoxoox

yah so song of the day is LOVE DON'T LIVE HERE ANYMORE... u know i love old school stuff... i really think i should be like 45 years old lol

oh and thanks for everyone that came for supper it was totally fun!!! and we cant forget simon hahaha

gonna write tonight after my supper with the gang to my fav buffet place...

just a song i have in my head....

my feeling can't explain anymore!!!!

a lost fav

There gotta be a better way... Im givin you love... 4 love

this video is awesome and everything those old ladies are talking about is sooo true even the last part...


It's so hard to find someone special
That someone you can love and trust

It's so hard to put your love on the line
You know love ??? space and time
Some people all they want is fortune
Some people all they want is fame
Some people all they'll do is break your heart
There's got to be a -- a better way
Of giving your love

I, I'm givin' ya love for love
If you feel it in your heart
That's the only way to start
It's gotta be love for love

And when you find that special someone

There's got to be a little give and take
It feels so bad to give all of your heart
Only to find that just is just in vain

Some people say that love's a gamble
Some people think that it's a game
Some people say that love is just for fools
There's got to be a better way
Of giving your love
I'm givin' you love for love....

there is a first for everything... Drunk :( but never a slut

yah on sunday we went to tribe and it was my frist time getting drunk in my whole life... here are pics from Jens




Penelope are u drunk tooo??? 300$ for a BJ


My awesome baby sister!!! she is the best


Friend of jens (he took my AC Spot bitch!!!)




Sylvain and I (that crazy boy)

before you press delete.... IF ONLY...

yeah a friend asked me to help her with her love life and what she should do with his guy that she loves.... but i cant even help myself soo iam no better.. im sorry :(

yah so tonight song is Only You original ver. (i hate the feat. Therese)
been listening to it all night fucken ipod!!! i hate you :(

would know me better,
would listen better,
would see me better,
would hear me better,
Set me free, before you press delete...

If only you, could see that I’m burning, if only you would know how I’m hurting, all for....



and guys stop it... i know u care a lot about me.. but iam not gonna make the call sorry

*what wrong was i was being rejected and the goal was me not being in your life.... mission accomplished

i get soo lonely.... :(

oh well god work in mysterious ways i guess grrrr

yeah today after work i headed downtown by myself... wanted so time alone... in the middle of the metro ride i felt super lonely and was think how stupid i feel goin to eat in the village alone.... i wanted to call ray but she was at work and felix was with his daddy and i didnt want to bother them.... so while gettin out of the metro a random guy walked in front and asked me if i was chris... ummmm yes.. and he remeber me from facebook and he added me... i never meet him before but he was nice and cutie as a button (dont worry he has a bf hahhaa) yah so i told him i was goin to eat alone and he said him also so we had supper together it was very nice and relaxin... i was thinkin... geezz i think i wish to hard not to be alone hahahah god answer my plead ?? why dont you answer my others one... :(

oh well god work in mysterious ways i guess grrrr


so the song of the day is SERIOUS....

Here comes the sunshine by love Inc.

first time waking up not feelin that sad... so itz a good start... i guess

woke up thinking about this song... i always loved LOVE INC.

my version

Somethings disappear inside
Should I try to run away
If I could I would escape you
I won't argue anymore....

I have lost the will to be
Hope you don't think I'm ungrateful


Close the curtains lock the door
Left my Heart upon the stair
In hope you wouldn't see it


Fake emotions in my head...
Everything I've seen and read
Can't begin to find a reason?!


Why,
Is it something that I said

I don't like this place at all!!!
Makes me wonder what I'm here for

Someone take this pain away...
Dying to see another day...

And I wish to be your friend
Or pretend I can fit into
I'm incensed, I'm blown away
Dying to see another day.....

friends with dreams and friendship that will never end

i know how u feel guys it not easy to be who or what we really want in the future but we have to be strong and never give up....

we all have a story i know about you guys... love, money, career, family, emotions, past, future, etc...
and u know im thinking about everyone of u and will take good care of all you guys cuz u are like my brothers and sister(one girl)...

Best friends forever for good times and bad
and thanks for planning this trip with me!!!
i love u all!!
like you guys didnt have to!!!
but you guys knew i really need it.. :(

but we will have fun i promise.. and u know i never break them
because i love and care for everyone of u

Thank u for being in my life

this song is for u guys old school like how we like it

my silent goodbye to love...

hardest shit in my whole life...
but i did it...
i had soo much stuff i wanted to tell him but i choked just his face get me...
when he hugged me all i wanted to do was just stay there forever in his arms and his warm body next to mine and his heart beat next to mine....
but i had to do it.. I put my love for him away
and i found the best place to leave it.. i didn't just go to his place to give back his cd.. it was also to leave my love behind for him in his apartment... so now i have no right or way to get it back... he has my love for him now and the only way to get it back is HIM... im gonna miss him soo much and also Mo (she is awesome with her crazy eyes!!!)


so yeah i cryed soo hard driving downtown... it hurts but hey itz for the best now...

so yes im super sorry to all my friends that i wasn't myself for the past 5 months...

my biggest mistake is that if i didn't love him... him and i would be bestest friends ever because we have the same sense of humor and we both love kylie and we have similar taste in music and colors...
when we are together it just soo fun.

if only i can turn back time...

but now i have to start all new

he has my heart for him ....

when he is ready to be with me...he will give it back ...

but if not he can keep it and remember the fun times we had

RIP old heart hope to see u soon but if not itz okay i will understand

Its the path that is for us

in the waiting line

no messages
no calls
not knowing what is going on
not knowing if you are okay
no answers
nothing


Disappear from the face of the earth...


how am i suppose to understand?! you tell me

i don't get it.. like are we suppose to know everything?!
like every fucken detail about your life if i knew i would never fall in love with you...

good luck with mr. perfecto

because i super unperfect

picking up the fucken pieces

Hate is what keep me away from u...
and i hope your fucken happy

got my inside out and my headache wont stop

yeah so gonna take a break from montreal i goin on a road trip with my friends so tomorrow i will buy my ticket out of here i'll be gone for a few days.. i really need this because i hardly ever travail... it will good for me
yeah so i had an interview today... i hope i dont get to teh next part because i dont really want this job but hey i went today cuz i have nothing better to do anyways...

yah so i went with viet and felix to watch Sex in the city...
OMFG after the movie i really hate love it makes me sick

i kinda felt sad in the movie but hey itz only a movie soo fuck that shit why feel bad itz not my life anyways ahahahha i just love the clothes anyways!!! hahaha

Cold hearted snake is that you??? i think so

omg we have to thanks my bestest friend Brendan who is lending me his apartment for my little trip i love love love u!! i save soo much money... cuz i was think about a hotel that will cost me like min 100$ per nite

so road trip 2008 here i come!!!!
watch out asian twink boi is coming!!!

Hercules is blind!!!

the rain came down and like it is was my fault... :s

123467890

Break my fall
I found what was missing inside you
Break my fall

you better step up to me if u wanna play my game! if not just leave....

I listen to beats to replace my heart beat

itz crazy but i really need someone to take me to the sun and show me the effin light and happiness.... LOL

but like wat ray said it might be because of the weather...

DAM U MOTHER NATURE!!!