putting my H beat on hold

Love dont live here anymore...

let the beat get up!!!! part deux

I despise that you know
I'm too weak to say no
I can scream, I can shout
But you still got a hold
Oh baby

My friend are mystified about what I see in you
When you got that right
But they don't know why I put up with all that you do
Oh 'cause you love me right
Am I an addict only hanging out for your touch?
Oh oh oh oh
Well I should go, but maybe I could see you just once
Baby one more time, ohh yeah

'Cause baby when you touch me on my body
I lose every feeling that I used to know
And baby when you touch me on my body
I'm losing my mind every time here I go

no more pleading...

All alone
I sit home by the phone
Waiting for you, baby
How can you stand to hear
My pleading for you
You know I'm cryin
Oo oo oo oo oo

let the beat get up!!!!

I’m so sick and tired of sitting talking to you
Yeah that’s right
You never tell me anything that I wanna know ’bout your life

But baby when you touch me on my body
I losing every feeling that I used to know
And baby when you touch me on my body
I’m losing my mind every time here I go

But baby when you touch me on my body
I losing every feeling that I used to know
And baby when you touch me on my body
I’m losing my mind every time here I go

Baby, yeah that’s right
Baby, yeah that’s right

If i never see your face again...

What can i say.. really nothing much.. it doesnt matter anyways

time to try something new...

la la la la la

u know music is a big part of my life... well here is two of my fav song put in one

it has the big love i have (Rapture by IIO) and also the hate for myself for being stupid (Love on my mind by Freemason)

it kinda how my heart feels right now a mix of shit but i knew the answer a long time ago and didn't want to admit to it because i know we have this great bond... or it can be a lie... who know.. i don't even know myself



Some one plz take me to a better place away from here

RAPTURE ON MY MIND... is that you????

I let you get the best of me.....

lost a love and a good friend

aint no use in me wasting time

I got love on my mind,
aint no use in me wasting time


Yeah..
Yeah..
Yeah..
Yeah..


When the heartache is over
I know I won't be missing you
Won't look over my shoulder
'Cause I know that I can live without you

good luck buddy

itz just a second hand emotion

yep i realized that.. and well what can i say SUCKS TO ME MOI!!!

yah soo much stuff i need to say in my head but im too lazy and pooped now.... so point form will have to effin do...

1- omg i wish shane from china was here cuz he can help me with my effin life
2- Viet get a new lip gloss because we need the magic of Chanel back
3- New hair = weird
4- Must get ready for my contract tomorrow im too bumed to be nerves and excited anymore :(
5- thanks tina "Who needs it when it can be broken" i wish i can think that way


so i feel like a bitch... so don't fuck with me!!!

NEW HAIR!!!!

the thing u have in your soul...

yeah so today i was kylie minogue style with a hoody at work today hahhaha LALALA!!! omg i was at work super early... i almost died!! hahaha dead body.. is that you??? yah so i bought two summer jackets!! they are soo hot!!! i love them!!!
yeah so after work i didnt go to the gym so i have to make up for lost time tomorrow blahh!!!

yah so i stayed home to make myslef all pretty again lol
bleached my mofo teeeth.. grrr it burns like a bitch!!!! man y denist is crazy he wants me to have the prfect teeth ohh aim soo scared i might have to take off my bottom wisdom teeth wahhh chipmunk face again!!! soo my pretty face will be a fat face!!! booo!!!

oh well yeah so i found an awsome house music while i was pickin up my baby brother tonight itz called NOBODY by MO.CA feat. Michelle Weeks
soo fun the song!!! just love love love it!! hahah itz on the old hed kandi cd omg i need to get the new ones... i been soo lost with my music i ahve to wake up and smell the coffee beans i miss my euro house music wahhh!!!! yeah and also i need to get some lounge music i need some to chillax to hehehhe

yah so my artist of the month is LISA SHAW



Song: Matter Of Time
such a nice song....

but also here is her first song from LOVETONIC... more my style this one i love the beat!!! just make love with me to this song




ENJOY Babes

my fav bsb song....

http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=fzG2uGVwucE&feature=related



bsb the first concert i ever saw...
brings me to see how i have grown and what kinda person ive become...
but we are always gowning each day...
i wish to be perfect... because life would be soo easy

Plz be still my soul... because i love it

It's nice when the heart
The heart is beating faster
Feeling alive when there is wanting
Always the same
I jump too quickly
Be still my soul
shh shh hahhaha!!!

no expectation anymore just enjoying each day
that is all I can do for now

so plz be still my soul
be still....
Beacuse Im loving the moments!!!

S.O.S

I'm obsessive when just one thought of you comes up
And I'm aggressive just one thought of close enough
You got me stressing, incessantly pressing the issue
'Cause every moment gone you know I miss you
I'm the question and you're of course the answer
Just hold me close boy 'cause I'm your tiny dancer
You make me shaken up, never mistaken
But I can't control myself, got me calling out for help

found a cure by ultra awesome nate Part 3

the video that best represents me

this video is like me... and the song also...
i have a big heart and it getting smaller with each rejection...
does my big heart scare you??? well yeah that is my problem....

Song/Video of the day is Another Chance by roger sanchez

watch and enjoy...

aww no one wants me..... :(

i was in the ghettos last night!!!!!

scary shit!!! man if they wanna mug me the only thing is worth money was my granny giraffe bracelet lol it worth more than me bitch!!! lol IN THE GHETTOSS!!!!!!!!


this is my copy of Kenneth Jay Lane
famous giraffe Bracelet got it for 40$ at the chat and the original one u can get it on sale for 120$

Bio of kenneth jay lane

Born in Detroit, Michigan he is an alumnus of the University of Michigan and the Rhode Island School of Design.

He was first a shoe designer for Delman and Christian Dior and he used his free time to create fun and flashy baubles. They were such an instant success that Saks Fifth Avenue sold its entire initial inventory in one day. He was one of the persons included for "high fashion" in the Andy Warhol Screen Tests and a guest at Truman Capote's Black And White Ball.

He has created unique designs for Jackie Onassis, Elizabeth Taylor, Diana Vreeland, and Audrey Hepburn. He is probably most well known for his three-strand faux pearl necklace worn by Barbara Bush to her husband's inaugural ball. Some say that Duchess of Windsor is buried in the jewelled belt he created for her.

His continued philosophy is that 'elegance, good taste and luxury never go out of style'^[1]. Current stars wearing his jewelry include the Olsen twins, Sarah Jessica Parker, Mischa Barton, Jessica Simpson, Paris Hilton, and Britney Spears.

Many of the museum stores, including the Dallas Museum of Art, The Smithsonian, The Museum of Natural History, and the Bush Presidential Library carry his line of jewelry but his pieces can also be found on QVC. His items can also be found at most major department stores. His repertoire also includes exclusive pieces only available through AVON Independent Sales Representatives. He is about to launch a line of belts as well as handbags.

His pieces are now considered by many as collectable as precious gems, with vintage pieces selling at Christie's and Sotheby's and Doyle New York.

Since 1977 his home in Manhattan has been a duplex in the Stanford White mansion completed in 1892 and one of the few surviving mansions on Park Avenue. From 1923–1977 it served as the home of the Advertising Club. At that time it was converted into a cooperative apartment house. His living room is the former club library and features an original marble mantelpiece, a wide variety of original artwork and several lamps designed by Robert Denning of Denning & Fourcade.^[2]

He was added to Vanity Fair's International Best Dressed List, Hall of Fame in 1974. His book Faking It written together with Harrice Simons Miller was published in 1996 by Harry N Abrams ISBN 0-8109-3579-1.

[edit] References

1. ^ Eva London (Kenneth Jay Lane Stockist)
2. ^ Home Design 2002: Jewels in the Town by Bob Morris, April 8, 2002, New York online retrieved June 29, 2006

stupid weather got me sick.... fuck you!!!

aww im still sick.... :(

man i wish i have someone to take care of me... kinda sucks and sad oh well
i gotta get strong by myself... grrr why is he in my stupid head!!!!

well song of the day is I HAVE NOTHING sung by Leona soo beautiful!!!
"Plz Stay in my arms if you dare...dont walk away from me... i have nothing....."

GOTTA TELL YOU part 2

Your love for me came as a waterfall,
flew in inside me like never before,
your love for me, something I didn't see, but baby I know better now.



When you walked in the room that very night, a special feeling just burst inside, it was only you, nobody else, but baby I know better now




Don't wanna love you if you don't love me, don't wanna need you when you won't need me too, don't wanna tell you this now but it wouldn't be right, If I, (If I) didn't tell you this tonight.



yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah



And now your back inside my house again,

I'm trying deeper to explain,

cuz baby I, wanna get it all and baby your the one for me.



And now that I have got you all alone,

after all this talking on the phone,

I should be strong, there's nothin wrong, I'll tell you this is where you belong.

(where you belong)




There was just something in your eyes that made me realize, now I hear voices deep inside, tellin me, tellin me to realize

then it you and itz me you love......

why my life is sooo full of craziness and mystery ... u know what live my life to the fullest!!!
FUCK THIS SHIT!!! hahaha

he walks away the sun goes down my tears dry on thier own....

I love this song hehehe i hear it at work all the time hehehhe

I'm freed from desire.... Mind and senses purified

yah i meet the crazy and hottest black girl ever!!!! i think im in love!!! hahahha at CLUB DATE hahahhaha yah so been soo busy work now.. grr now i have more hors 1-9 again grrr oh well i'll make more money lol i have nothing better to do anyways... yeah so i cant wait for monday so i can be off hahahha sooo long i just started work blahhhhh



yah so today song is Gotta Tell You (dont worry guys this was my old song but patty cake posted on his blog so im just a copy cat hehehe but yeah an old song and an old memory) ohh dont pay attention to the video lol lezbo are the best!!! xoxoox
here is the good video
http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=LvfDMB7lZN4

the song is for one of my best friend plz feel better soon!!!

This is his jesus... hehehe i hope to see his smile again

Prince Charming.... is that you????

yah like every princess they have a prince.... how romantic lol!!! it kinda makes me sick!! lol but hey iam kinda like a princess so where the hell is my fucken prince lol hmmm dam little mermaid she has the hottest prince ever!!! prince eric your mine baby!! lol

one day my fucken prince will come and take me away... hurt up bitch!!! i wanna live in a castle now and eat cake all day!!!

soo plz prince charm plz come NOW!!!

I Found My Cure!!! part 2

the lyrics is sooo moi!!!!


I searched all over Could not find
Someone to hold Some peace of mind
Yesterday is gone Nothing else to do
But let it go
Before I lose
All of my hopes
And my dreams
For something that aint real
Things aint always as they seem


cause theres sunshine
After rain
And after the night comes morning
And in the spring the flowers bloom again
When Im feeling down

Like theres no way out
I know the love I have inside will make it alright

And when it feels like Im going crazy
When it feels like Im going insane
When it feels like Im going crazy
Found a cure
To get me through another day


How many times before have you
Been left alone and you feel confused
Do you have the strength to keep trying
When the walls just keep on closing in
But you got everything that you need
Inside your heart
If you just believe
Things aint always as they seem.....

the randomness again tonight

okay itz crazy but i have this crazy connection with you know who
i got another random sadness in my stomach and im tellin you very random!!!!

he needs me as a best friend..... and that is what i will be!!!
the bestest!!!
i'll be by his side whatever happens (like all you guys xoxox love you all)

i think that is what is most important thing i have to do now and be...


this song is for him (changes in his life but everything will soon be alright)

I found a cure

omg i went to boys night out with felix... IT WAS FUCKIN AMAZIN!!! yeah so guys next monday we are goin out again!!! lol they played most of all my new songs and old school stuff!!! hehehe yah so i made my mind i gonna love myself more now!!! so that is the cure hehehe because i had a huge talk with felix... life is tooo short... so live the now and while im still young take care of myself more! so im gonna do my hair tomorrow hahahhaa

so the song of the day is FOUND A CURE by Ultra Nate

ENJOY cuz i am!!!

im soo lost... i think it will be the end...

this is for a guy and others that thinks im the worst person in the world... well shit happened and just a word of advice

the future is wat you make it.... good luck!




I know wat i always wanted but im confused cuz i cant wait anymore.... itz so hard
and i will have to make up my mind asap before i hurt anyone more....

i hate my life....

you know what i like in the middle of the night???

SOS PRINCE!!!!!!!!

question of the day?????

Man i wish i was rich so i can please others and myself...
you know what ppl say that you cant buy happiness... pfff bullshit!!! i can buy alot of happiness!! trust me! lol if i had alot of money i would buy my future bf everything he wants and buy an awesome huge castle and invite all my friends to live with me.
my friends and i would never work and just go shopping all day!!! hhahahhah

I WISH!!!!

so the question is HOW TO BE A MILLIONAIRE??? HMMMMM if you have the golden answer plz call me on my cell if i dont answer please leave a message....

MOTOWN..... is that YOU????!!!!

SONG OF THE DAY!!!! and happy mothers day! xoxo

gonna be another lonely night your a risk and im a borderline...

LOVE THIS SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha latino whores.... is that you?? hahaha

this song soo touchy hahahaha cheesy!!!! i love it!!! hahaha dont we love to do the bachata....
come and dance with me... any takers???

Song of the day

steak and bananas ohh lets not forget poutine!!!!

im at felixs house right now... his place is soo cozy!!! i just love it! i wish i had a place of my own :(
but one day!!! i have to work hard
hehehe yah so im not sleepy lol i just at a super huge poutine!!! lol uhhh i feel so fat!!! thank god im goin to the gym!!!! hehehe yah so awww this week i ate soo much sweets... i cant even look at a mint lol heheh dam Anne!!!! lol yah so im just blah! im tired but i cant sleep lol i think i will go back to my room too see if i can sleep hehehe im like a little night creature hehehe


so the song of the day is Better That You Leave by the awesome david morales!!! i remember my friends in fashion design all over him hehehe he was a dj god to us!!!! he is still awesome no matter wat hehehe i love this old song!!!! hehehe good memories!!! ohh lena and saiyaka chan

Gimme wat i want gimme what i need!!!!

wanna be a winner??? the prize is Moi

my asian persuasion

Everybody wants and loves an asian boy!!!!! SO COME LOVE ME LOL

Priape photos part 2 photos by Jens Brady

blast from the past!!!!

This is awesome!!!!! hahahhaha GREAT!!!



REMIX!!!!

My Song Of The Day..... WHEN I THINK OF YOU

remind me of when i was first introduced to Hed Kandi...
and the how i feel the first time i loved someone the beat just gets me... (Melt)

oh im soo happy i found this old song again... im soo happy!!!!!!!

im just all dreamy again lol

Mac brozing powder

yah so i made awesome good friends!!! like they we been friends but getting to know them.. they are amazin! yah Anne and Felix they are super adorable!!!
lol yah so yesterday was viet's awsome final project fashion show!!! it was really fun!!! viet was super adorable and ray was one of the models!!
(dont worry guys im gonna get my hands on more pics hehehe and post them here and facebook hehehe)


ray on the runway!!! strut baby strut!!! by the way i hate that dress soo ugly mugly!!!


anne, me and marc-alex

yah after we went to each at chinatown at Beijing... note never go there cuz they fuck white ppl.. we paid more that wat we order!!!! and they asked for a tip pifff!!! so next time we are not gonna go eat there!!!!

i have beef with them!!! lol

yah the song of the day is

SEE YOU AGAIN but the cute miley cyrus

I wonder how I want your soul??? cuz I cant let go!!!

Song of the day

hey another wannabe!!! doesnt it look like the kylie minogue "I BELIEVE IN YOU" video but cheap version???

Priape photos part 1

Thank you Anne for the pictures!!!!

Song of the day

waiting but it ain't easy grrrrr so shoot me now!! lol

happiness seems to be my loneliness

yeah i wish that you know who was at the contest to cheer me on... :(
i kinda really miss him
that is why i left early..and i dont like clubbin anymore

wat i really want to spend time with you know who but i dont think so.. kinda sad huh?!

oh well time will tell

i love u guys!!!

i would like to thank all my friends for coming to sky to support me in the cheesy mr. priape wear model search lol it was really fun!!!! and thank u guys again cuz u guys are the best and i didnt regret doin this cuz i know who are my real friends!!!!
and also making new friends!!!

oh also please send me the pics!!! i wanna post them up!!!!


i'll always keep this moment in my heart hearing my friends cheer for me and taking their time to come to see me in under wear

the only beef i had was why was i the only one with the transparent undie????!!!!! grrrr
and i had to wear two bathing suit and every one had only one style
i had to also wear the one that the winner didnt look good in lol because i looked better in it hahhaha

oh well Asian sensation 4 ever!!!

Girlicious??? more like Whorelicious!!!!

is it me or they are wear what i saw in the cheap walmart Halloween liquidation rack for babies?? like the clothes dont fit u they are too short geez who is the parent of these children?!!!!! lol no no they are old enough but just barely they are 18!!!!! and why are do they get naked and take of there clothes at the end??? u guys dont need to u are almost naked already?!! silly girls..... PROSTITUTE???? is that YOU????

oh well..... thanks god im not a girl cuz i bet they will be my role models and the PCD lol

DONT YOU WISH YOUR BF OR GF WAS HOT LIKE ME??????

im bad enough lol BOYLICIOUS??? is that me???

grrrrrr bitter sweet!!!!

song of the day is FALL FOR YOU by the awesome pop queen kylie!!!

yah so grrrr i cant help how i feel!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrr lol but i like it this way hehehehe ^_^

one of the best trance song of all time

this song touched me hardcore
the first time i heard this song it was how i was feelin creepy huh?!!!

man with out music i will die

music is my life and what inspires me for everything....

are your ready to fly...

yah i been eating not good the past week... missing lunch and supper... blah.... not so cool lol but dont worry i just had and awesome mushroom, hot dog and cheese salad lol for the ppl who dont know me i dont know how to cook lol so my future boyfriend will have to eat cold cutz and hot dogs with me hehehehe i cant cook :( but i can give the best hugs ever hehehe
who needs food anyways when u have my love lol

yah so today i been meet popular ppl and doin random stuff lol yah these past days has been an adventure for me and the week is not even done yet.... geez im gettin tired lol


yah so the song of the day is ARE YOU READY TO FLY
this is the first dance song i loved (listen to this in my daddies car)... it wat started and created moi the love of dance music

who i really was... and still growing and learning to better

thank you Rozalla