lost in music

why cant ppl just tell me the truth i rather get hurt that way then me thinkin....

plz understand and listen guys

You Learn To Love Yourself Part 2

*you hear another story everyday
of some ill fated love that got away
and nearly every time it ends the same
when trust is gone, nobody wants the blame

you'll find
there's no one left to love you
in time
you learn to love yourself

*you'll find
when no one's thinking of you
it's time
to care about yourself

friends are here and friends will be away
new lovers kiss, and swear they'll never stray(but they stray)
and every night that party ends the same
with too much wine they find that
something's changed(and it's changed)

*you'll find
there's no one left to love you
in time
you learn to love yourself

you'll find
when no one's thinking of you
it's time
to care about yourself

you saw it on the news the other day
a movie star's romantic hideaway
and all the time you think they've got it made
a year and they're dividing the estate(who gets the kids?)

you'll find
when no one's thinking of you
it's time
to care about yourself

you'll find
when no one's thinking of you
it's time
to care about yourself

*feels alright when you start to laugh
feels too good just to let is pass
scared to say what you want to say
tastes too sweet just to end this way...

not stayin at home anymore

i need to get out



someone plz save the queen!!!!

OMG PATTY THANKS FOR THE REMINDER OF THIS SONG!!! LOL LOVE LOVE IT!!!

yah so this song is yours lol

don't worry patty i know u!! lol
but alot of ppl will have to learn to get to know u... like me iam willing to learn to get to know... and who know.... if there is a will there is always a way

back to basics so take it and erase it... i will make it better

we drifted further afield,
but there was nothing out there for me,
I realized you're all i needed

now that i got you caught
i don't know what i did before,
you've made my life so special,
everything that I had before you,
give it to me with much more,
that's why I can never let you go,
no.....


Bring it back, to basics,
You and I..i..i will make it right,
Take it back, erase it,
You and I will make it right,
Bring it back, to basics,
You and I..i..i will make it right,
Let's get back, to basics,
back to basics,


Couldn't remember,
just what made me fall for you,
searching for others,
they make me feel all blue,
but everytime i felt that feeling,
I knew it wasn't what i needed,

First i nearly got you caught,
I felt better than i felt before,
you've made my life so special,
everything that i could want you,
give it to me every part,
that's why I'd never let you go,
no....


Bring it back, to basics,
You and I..i..i will make it right,
Take it back, erase it,
You and I will make it right,
Bring it back, to basics,
You and I..i..i will make it right,
Let's get back, to basics,
back to basics,

Love Yourself part 1

hey man?! do i look like im looking at you? and also I DON'T WANT NO SCRUBS!!! so back off!! NOT INTERESTED!!!

so guys keep note that no scrubs plz cuz you ain't getting any of my lovin

gonna take my time and do it right

don't your remember the time when you always wanted to be a solid gold dancer?!!!!

HELL YEAH BABY!!

the only song i like on HARD CANDY..... :S & BYE BYE GOOD FOOD RIP

eddy eddy eddy... lol mahhhh you are gonna kill me!!! i cant eat cottage cheese everyday... im gonna gave diarrhea lol yah so my good friend eddy who is a super built guy is making me go on this strict diet and work out cuz he thinks i can be more riped and beautiful.....

bye bye poutine and cheap hotdogs at the belle province
bye bye fatty japanese salad dressing
bye bye french fries with yummy mayo
bye bye my yummy jos louis


blahhhhhh Bye bye Miss American Pie

lol



but eddie wants the best for me he is an awesome friend hehehe ( u should see my face when he told me about the program i think i never look soo pale in my whole life.. even that day i stayed in my bed for 3 days straight lol dont ask why lol long story)

oh the best is ~ eddy- chris you need to eat breakfast
me- umm i dont have breakfast...
eddy- why?
me- cuz i wake up at noon lol
eddy- well start being like a normal person!!!!
me- ughhh do i have to??

hahhahhahhaha

so yah cottage cheese here i come!!!!

my smell makes the girls go loco.. lol

yah my cologne is soo delicious im gettin hit on by girls now lol dame too bad im not straight cuz i get me some hot mamas in the house! lol but sorry girls i like men

yah so omg i look soo ugly mugly the past week .... so tonight is major retouchin lol

crept keeper.... is that you???? lol yah for real!!!!!



Song of the day is OVERPOWERED


~hey isnt that kylie's dress in her video???? hmmmm??? that bitch stole it from her KYLIE BHH roisin!!! lol
but hey this video i think was made last year??? hmmmmm questioning?






love and hugs from the the one that loves you best!!! xoxoxo and it will cost you cuz iam no cheap ho!!! lol

my bff patty

my best friend patty thanks for everything!!! we i cant go chasing waterfalls but we can always try and itz worth everything!!! and if i didn't try i would regret it for the rest of my life...

care like a carebear

i dont care wat ppl think i care for the ones i love and will always be there for them
i know i can be a crazy but i 'm crazy in love...
i'm also a fighter so i'll never give you up...
i'll keep my words and never lie to u...
i'll make you laugh and never let you down...

you know... i'll be there for you

and that I promise you

song of the day is Care for you by the angel Aaliyah

madonna ..... is that you??

Down, down, down in your heart
Find, find, find the secret
Turn, turn, turn your head around
Baby we can do it
We can do it all right

Do you believe in love at first sight
It's an illusion, I don't care
Do you believe I can make you feel better
Too much confusion, come on over here


Can we get together?
I really, I really wanna be with you
Come on, check it out with me
I hope you, I hope you feel the same way too

I searched, I searched, I searched my whole life
To find, find, find the secret
But all I did was open up my eyes
Baby we can do it
we can do it all right

Do you believe that we can change the future
Do you believe I can make you feel better



It's all an illusion
There's too much confusion
I'll make you feel better


If it's bitter at the start
Then it's sweeter in the end

i never forgot you kylie... xoxo

From Asia with Love

Shane says:
you really should though, i know u prefer hot, but you really are beautiful, from your pics looks like u have an amazing collection of friends, and a great family, these people love you because you are so incredible

Shane says:
you have to believe in yourself



Thanks Shane you are Super Duper Sweet!!!

I do have amazing friends and family
^_^


Song of the day is Everytime I See Her (sound of eden) by Another Chance
touching song for me (just put him instead her in the song)

This week Top 10 songs on my ipod!!!

yah so these are my top song on my ipod for this week lol yah so enjoy listen to them hehehe

1- Some Kinda Rush ~ Booty Luv
2- Baby When Lights Go Out ~ David Guetta
3- Cry For You ~ September
4- Lady ~ Modjo
5- Let Me Know ~ Roisin Murphy
6- Where My Girls At ~ 702
7- Boy From School ~ Hot Chips
8- Because I Love You ~ September
9- Till There Was You ~ Rachael Starr
10- Everytime I See Her ~ Another Chance (Bodyrox Vocal Mix)

YOU DON'T KNOW by 702

http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=FCr7bphiV5U&NR=1

wanted us both to be happy together but without the guilt that kill me in your eyes...

X markes the spot

my words I say is true but still itz not good enough for you

words from an angel in paris

porcelaine says:
be strong chris....when it feels so bad the only thing that happens after can be good
porcelaine says:
so perhaps you need to hurt so bad now to appreciate the AMAZING thing that will follow
porcelaine says:
you'll rememeber my words

LOVE CAN DAMAGE YOUR HEALTH

Was I Too..... Close

For the one in my heart....

don't feel like sayin much but yeah this song is for the guy who makes me smile and cry... but always makes me feel good at the end...
gonna miss him soo much
just wish things could have been different
because I could be just as good... or even better

so now im out of the way

he can finally have peace...

Because of you by Ayumi Hamasaki

Just keep it up

grrr just pisses me off!!!
i don't think ppl think ???
you just don't know
well keep it up and ... you wont even know what happened


http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=FCr7bphiV5U

1212 and christmas lights!!!!

yah so today i was an hour late for work lol man stop changing my schedule!!! G STRING!!! lol yah so today there was soo many stupid ppl tryin and not buyin!!! grrr make me work more! hate it!!! oh well i wasnt feelin chill anyways... hummm could be because i dont eat and save my money for clothes or fun stuff hehehehe oh i bought this awesome necklace today hehehe soo shinny!! like my nails hahhaha yah so today i hear the most funny and scary thing ever!!! okay listen guys.... at 1212 max was in his room and a random homeless bum was in his living room!!! max was freakin out and the homeless as talkin about 1212 and Christmas lights??? soo random!!! omg i laugh when i hear it but also freaked out!!! lol yah so after max kick the shit out of him lol way to go my babe!!! lol yah so now on 1212 is locked lol so knock before coming in man!!! oh and ppl dont for get itz fleur de lotus birthday next week soo u know what that means!!!! P. A .R . T why CUZ WE GOTTA!!!!

ok so im gonna eat some lamb now lol




Song of the day is AT THE END by IIO

touch again u die....

i hate gays who can't keep their fucken hands to them self
so dont mess with my man or i'll BHH you!!! and trust me i will :)

Feels like some kinda RUSH

crazy crazy ppl at work lol but i had some awesome customer!!! super hot mamas!!! sold hot kits!! yah so if u ever wanna have a new wardrobe come and see me lol yah so today i met the new boy who is gonna work with us hehehe lets say cute hahaha too much self tanner lol but cute lol yah so i wont be the only boys sales person hehehe grrrr we fight! lol nahhh im always gonna be the mascot of the team hehehe "the cute asian boy" hehehe
yah so i had a good day today with my bum hehehe soo adorable lol i tease and fight but itz always true to my heart.

and i cant wait for monday!!! doin mah HAIR!!! and oh shit i forgot i have to go to fido.. grrr my cell doesnt want to go to my voicebox... so yah i got 5 messages if it any of u guys iam sorry!!! try textin me! xoxoox

song of the day is SOME KINDA RUSH awesome awesome song!!! by the ghetto girls BOOTY LUV

september knows me best!!!

Time for me to be happy again.... so lets start it up and itz gonna be with u!!!

September has every song that reflect all my emotions and moments

she is the best!!! i cant wait to get all her cds!!! yah so i'll be cutting my hair again this monday with lyne my fav hair dresser ever so if u need a hair cut i say u come to SACO and ask for her the best and cheap!!!!! and if your lucky i might wash your hair and blow dry it hahahaha

xoxoxo to all my bunnies





so the song of the day is START IT UP By the amazing septemeber
man this one is a hard one to find!!! stupid limewire doesnt have this song for me to steal! lol i need this one for me collection lol

oh just to tell you she is not a wannabe cuz i have this little devil who thinks she is and just to say NEVER!!!! we love her!!! September 4 EVER

peanut butter sandwish and milk every night... yummy

KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF MY MAN!!!
You had Your chance
And you lost a good man
I know It's Sad
Thinkin' 'bout what you had

TOO BAD

amazin??? not really

up till the break of dawn.... :(

NEW SEPTEMBER SONG

September knows me best.... never fails

Kylie loves asian boys and girls!!!!!!

EVERYBODY LOVES AN ASIAN BOY!!!
SO WHO IS THE LUCKY ONE???!!!!

September..... is that you???

You can try and walk on water
In the end everybody
Walks all over you
No, you don't like the sight of mirrors
Cause you're scared that the face
Will see, will look just like before

Even an angel can end up falling
Don't you cry, because you're crawling
Start again, it's a beautiful morning
For satellites

All I want is you
Let me take you back
Where you once belong
All I want is you
It will be alright if you come along
You were never gone

SEPTEMBER BLUES IT UP!!!!

everybody is lookin for love.... everybody is searchin above... but is anybody lookin for me??

This song is for all the lovely singles out there... from the awesome September!!!

all because of boys!!!!

yah so i can't handle boys anymore so im gonna give up lol none are interesting anyways
soo bye bye guys!!! none are worth my love anyways

the slumber party at my bums palace lol

yah so im getting ready to pack my huge camping bag to sleep over at my bums house lol yah soo i plan on making a mess and make evil plans with his daughter momo and when i go to his bathroom im gonna paint a beautiful painting of the beautiful venus!!! hahha
yah so todays song is YOU KNOW ME BETTER
i been listen to this every time now on my ipod REPEAT REPEAT!!!!! lol

700 dollars??? is that you?

the song of the day is LET ME KNOW... this is dedicated to a special person don't want u to be alone anymore....

SEPTEMBER.... is that u?!! hahhaha LOVE!!!

weird vibes are coming to me... like my best friend patty cake is feelin blue... aww he is suck a good boy he just broke up with his bf and itz his birthday today.... yah so im gonna buy him something cute hehehe to make him smile!!! yah and also my good friend Pierre called me and he is having a bad week at work soo i wish him luck and sedin him good vibes!!!! yah i and miss the person we shall not pronounce lol yah so OMG I HEAR SEPTEMBER AT MY STORE!!! u know what means!!!! SEPTMBER is in all the le chateau stores!!!! YEAH BABY!!!!!! i m super happy cuz the new music at le chateau is all kylie and september!!!!! love love love!!!!!









yah so omg im soo tired of training itz soo hard to get abs!!! shit man!!! grrrr oh well yah so tonight i'll be driving to Patrick's birthday part at 1212 and im gonna bring something special!!! hahahaha and take some pics!!! heheheh hopefully i find parking... grrrrrrrrr

yah so i hope i make my patty cake smile on his birthday....

and for now pat is song is for you i know it won't help much but u can boogie to his ahhaha and we are goin clubin soo


FRESH MEAT... is that you??!!!


SONG: NEW DAY

septemeber's new single love love love

the amazin singer septemeber's new single is BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!!!!
amazin amazing but I wish her next single would be REST IN PEACE... oh well but both are on her New CD for the US hehehhe yah so here is the song BEACUSE I LOVE YOU enjoy!!!

Moby new song!!!

LOVE LOVE LOVE

thanks max to introduce me this new song!!! my new theme song hhahaha!!!

THE SINGLES CLUB!!!

yah so today i went on a shoppin crazy i got soo much shit!!! wahhh bought too much! and after i went to patti cakes house for a movie night... was super fun! hahha like always i fell asleep in the middle of the movie!! dont give me wine coolers hahaha yah so been thinkin alot and i feel more at ease so let take it step by step ouu baby hahaha we love new kids on the block!!!
yah so today song is STARRY SKY by the copy of ayumi hamasaki lol



This song means soo much to me and it even have the lyrics translated in English!!!!

I want to make it right....

:(

need somebody to love me and hold me...

FEELIN ME

it takes two to tango... that is why i dont dance!!!

hey hey today was an fun day.. went to do my hair and then meet up with patti cake and then walked to 1212 to meet max and raf!!!
we had supper at carlos and pepes and i was the biggest bitch ever there lol i didnt even tip the waiter that asshole!!! hahahha making me buy a drink that fucker...
YOUR TIP IS THE MONEY I SPEND ON THE CRAPPY DIET COKE BITCH!!!
lol
yah so still feein meeeh... i know i know u all want me to go back on facebook but i dont feel like it... but i have to soon cuz im hosting Patti's birthday party and u know what that means!!! the best parties ever!!!! hahhaha like my birthday we are doin the same but not too much food lol
all you can eat buffet lol
yah so i promise patty to go back n facebook to invite all you guys but u are reading this soo u will get an invitation soon from me... ughhh i hate facebook now lol

yah so todays song is GET ALONG WITH YOU
(listen to this at 1212 soo emo hahhhaa wahhh change the fucken depressing music lol let put some sister act hahhaha)


Try me cause I'd be
The one that makes you happy

But the part that I don't get is
Why me? You deny me

Now I'm forced to roam this planet
Sadly, lonely like some used briget

You took my heartbeat from me
This is the saddest story

What was wrong with my love?
You took my heartbeat from me
Was it I loved you poorly?
Whatever it was, I just wanna get along with you

live the rest of our lives but not togther...

soo gay but good luck

yah so im such a bad person and horrible guy that no guys want me lol
kinda sucks ass that seeing the person u like wants love but not yours.... :(

itz okay i just wish him luck and all the best...




Good luck good luck!
Good luck in your new bed!!
Enjoy your nightmares honey!!!
When your're resting your head!!!!

remebering this song...

" You'd do anything to look in their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you "

all boys tell me the white lies... random Champaign!!!! LOL

yah so today i had a better day.. still meeh but better yah so today after work i went for all u can eat sushi with my good friend Pierre. i was sooo happy!!! so if u wanna make me happy just put sushi in front of my face and blahhhh!!! hehehe yah so after we went to his place to listen to ayumi and september!!! soo much fun!!
yah so i ate soo much i feel soo fat! wahh i need to train!!!! NOW!!!


lol
yah so torrow i might go do my hair and meet up with a new friend i meet today at work oh actually the day before my birthday for 5 mins hahah at maxi's house .. this boy is cute as a button lol man i need to fix my hair!!! lol

Song of the day is WHITE LIES (that is what all boys tell me)

never gonna beg again... soo stupid

it soo weired i don't understand love???
why do we fall for the guys that don't us?
and the ones that like you your not interested???

like what a wise friend told me and amy (hhahahah that crak head)
"love is a losing game"...

I hate games i always loose!!!
maybe that is why my love life sucks ass
i guess no one wants my love? :(

oh well i'll have to live with it 4 now.....

yah so today after work i went to the gym and then i went to sky with jean-paul, bobby, max and pex
was fun but i realized how super lonely i was... and how much i wish i had a lover to hold me hand on the dance floor... oh well... music as good oh and i meet my old time fashion design friend MAGGIE!!! that crazy chinese girl hehehe soo kawaii!!!
yah she was all made up hahaha love it!!!
yah so todays song is TRY ME OUT



Yeah it reminded me the day i so stupid to beg 4 love... and i usually never beg for anything :(
(try me out... take a chance... cuz i wanna be your)

Asiantwinkboi?? is that u??? hahaha

Today was a ruff day man... soo tired! i work at 1- 9 at the chat lol (aka le chateau) it was okay not to bad cuz i work with a bunch of cute girls!! hehehe yah so kinda blue today but there is always tomorrow! yah so i been thinkin alot about my life and i gotta get my ass gon cuz i aint gettin younger!!! hahaha so my big plan is... to rule the world and make all men my slaves!!! hahaha no no i need to plan out what im gonna go for the summer... hmm i talked to some friends and i think im gonna get another part time job... dancer? Shooter boy? Whore? hahahha NEVER!!!! i will see! and also i have to train everyday now.. :( becuase i might be doin this contest... I'll tell u guys more detail till i get more info hehehe so it will be a surprise for now!!!

yah so todays song is IF ONLY YOU
and yes to all my close friend the name we shall not pronounce lol
SO ENJOY!!!

SEPTEMBER COMING TO THE US!!!!!

You never heard me break your heart
You didn't wake up when we died
Since I was lonely from the start
I think the end is mine to write

You'll never gonna see me again
So now who's gonna cry for you
You'll never gonna see me again
No matter what you do

still alive not died yet hahaha

Hey guys i guess you guys are freaking out that im not on facebook anymore... sorry babes but i'll be back soon but thanks for the msgs and emails asking where iam lol dont worry iam still alive hahaha but u guys can continue emialing me or chat on msn!!! yah so im having a difficult time now in my life but soon i'll be back to myself the one always smiling!! hehehe yah so hmmm thanks to my two new angels in my life..
JP & Pierre

both are cotton candy!!!

don't worry Jino u are still my angel.. my little dirty angel now hahahha

yah so been listen to a lot of ayumi hamasaki stuff ^_^
she is soo awesome i wish i can be as cute as her!!!



GRR i wish i had big eyes like her!!! oh well when im rich i'll get it done hahaha
i come out lie Michael jackson ( dont get me wrong I LOVE HIM )

so todays song is WHO Hope you enjoy it!!!





Song: WHO
Lyrics: Ayumi Hamasaki
Composer: Kazuhito Kikuchi
Arranger: Naoto Suzuki

Uh - la la la...

When I was heartbroken, who stayed by my side?
On whose shoulder did I shed my tears?
With whom did I share my joy?
With whom did I hold hands?
I remember.

On the night we spent apart
The moon was far away and I was crying.
On the night we spent apart
The moon was far away and I was crying.

Who taught me true strength?
Who taught me kindness?
On whose account do I walk?
Who did I want to stroke my hair?
Who didn't give up for me?
I'll never forget.

When I stray from the path, and
When the path is too long,
I was muttering to myself.
That's the way life is...

I pray that this singing voice
will reach you...
I pray that this singing voice
will reach you...

I pray that this singing voice
will reach you...
I pray that this singing voice
will reach you...

ha-a-a-

NO AIR.... Can't breath

AND THEN By Ayumi Hamasaki

English Translation


I don't know why I'm remembering now something I asked
a person from somewhere long ago whose face I don't even remember.
It was something about how, surprisingly soon, important things will be rolling
by my side, and that they're things you can't see.

While saying something about how we were born imperfect, so
in order to become perfect we... la la la...

When was I able to believe in unsee able things?
Now I see too much and don't understand.

Only unrelated words are lined up on the paper.
I get the feeling that I wrote a poem or something, la la la...

If I find an important thing I won't tell anyone.
I'm very strong when I have something I must protect.
Didn't I say I couldn't stay in a place that's always the same?
Let's leave this city together before the sun rises.

While saying something about how we were born imperfect, so
in order to become perfect we... la la la...

Sharing one's pain and sadness
is easier said than done. If I could I would.
Didn't I say I couldn't stay in a place that's always the same?
Let's leave this city together before the sun rises.

Japanese

mukashi doko ka no dare ka kao mo oboete inai you na dare ka ni ne
kiita hanashi o naze da ka imagoro futto omoi dashite iru
kanjin na mono wa angai sugu soba ni korogatte iru to iu koto to
soshite sore wa me ni mienai mono da to iu hanashi datta kana

fukanzen na mama umareta bokura wa itsu ka kanzen na
mono to naru tame ni nante iinagara la la la...

me ni mienai mono o shinjite irareta no nante itsu no koto darou
kono koro ja nani mo ka mo ga miesugite wakaranaku natte iru

taishite imi nai kotobatachi bakari kami ni narabete ru
shi demo kaita ka no you na ki ni natte la la la...

taisetsu na mono hitotsu mitsuketara dare ni demo wa oshienai kedo ne
mamoru beki mono ga aru watashi wa totemo tsuyoi kara ne
itsu made mo onaji you na tokoro ni wa irarenai to itte ita deshou
hi ga noboru sono mae ni futari shite kono machi o dete miyou

fukanzen na mama umareta bokura wa itsu ka kanzen na
mono to naru tame ni nante iinagara la la la...

kanashimi mo kurushimi mo nani mo ka mo wakeaeba ii n ja nai nante
kantan ni iu kedo ke ne sonna koto dekiru nara yatte'ru
itsu made mo onaji you na tokoro ni wa irarenai to itte ita deshou
hi ga noboru sono mae ni futari shite kono machi o dete miyou

i hate all boys!!!